Recently, I have found myself consumed with worry, fear, and doubt over some situations that I am facing. I have been so consumed that I have been robbed of the joy of each day as I focused on something in the future that may or may not even happen.
I know that tomorrow is not promised so why am I sabotaging my today?
Satan must be very happy!
The thing is that whenever I take my eyes off of Jesus and focus on my issues – my issues become larger than my God. Overwhelmingly so! At least in my mind.
I have been through lots of trials in my life and never once has God not been by my side. There have been times that I have not been by His as I walked off in my own direction. I can just imagine God shaking his head.
A while back I was having a conversation with a friend that I met only through Facebook. She was asking me to pray for her because some of her burdens “felt like chains” and she could almost see the impression marks from the chains on her shoulders.
I shared with her something that I have done in the past and she asked me to blog about it. Today seems like the time since it seems I too have been carrying things without even realizing it.
I used to have this little blue wooden cross (about 8 inches tall) that had the saying, “The cross is where we come and lay our burdens in faith.” I placed it in my window and looked at it everyday. I used to visualize a basket at the bottom. Whenever something was weighing on me, I imagined walking right up to the basket at the bottom of the cross and dumping all my worries in it and walking away much lighter than when I arrived. If ever I felt the weight of the world on my shoulders again, I knew that I had taken “it” back from God. I would stop what I was doing and walk back to the basket at the foot of the cross and dump that “stuff” right back in so I could enjoy and be present in the day. Being present in life’s moments – is there anything better than that?
Through numerous moves, I am not sure what has become of my little cross. Fortunately, it was merely a reminder of the real one!
I am very grateful to have a husband that reminds me to go to that place often even if he unknowingly does so. This morning as I picked up and dusted off my prayer journal – God was there waiting with open arms. As I wrote inside, I was reminded that I told someone that I would write this very blog.
The last thing that I want to share of my own personal experience with carrying my own burdens is that whenever I realize what I have been doing, I become heavy with guilt. I focus on the fact that I have once again fallen short. Have you ever heard that voice inside your head saying, “You could not even be faithful to God for a whole day?” Yeah, me too! I do not focus on the small victories in my daily life but rather on my failures. It really is a vicious cycle.
I do not know what you might be carrying. I just know that we all carry something from time to time. When the weight gets heavy, there is a place that you can lay it down. God meant for us to have joy-filled lives and to be present in the moment.
When you lay “it” down, celebrate that as a victory. Try seeing yourself as God sees you today. He does not see us as the miserable failures that we often see ourselves as but rather “perfection.” Hard to imagine, I know. He does not chastise us for our slip-ups. So perhaps, we need to let those go too!
“Be still, and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10
Until Next Time,