Weight has been a constant struggle for me throughout my life. Weight has been a measure of acceptance for me. Do not ask me why but for some reason I wanted the approval of my father who did not even deserve mine, but I was driven. When I lost weight I was too thin, when I gained, I was undoubtedly staying home wasting my life, raising kids and eating cookies. It was a no win. It cost me. I was bulimic. I was anorexic. I carried Ipecac in my purse.
I was up. I was down. Depending on my emotions. I had an unhealthy relationship with food and with myself.
I am not going to lie. To this day, it still takes me being consciously aware and intentionally examining my thought processes – being accountable. I cannot emphasize enough how important it is to have an accountability partner in life.
For the first time in my life, I am in a good place. I am healthy and my emotions are in check and I do not give a damn about what my father thinks. I care what I think and what my husband thinks. We are the only two that get a vote.
Several months ago, I stood on the scale and said ENOUGH. I walked out into the living room and told my husband that I had made a decision and for once, I was going to obtain a healthy body composition. I was going to lose and tone. I had a vision for my body and my future. I no longer wanted to be sickly skinny. I wanted to look and feel healthy and energetic and in control of my health.
Fortunately, my husband was quick to jump on board and we began this new way of life together. It has brought us closer as friends, as a couple, and as a family. We have embraced a new life. It is NOT a diet. It is not for the moment. It is not about reaching a goal and heading out to the nearest Mexican restaurant. It is about being in control of our bodies forever. Making healthy choices. (My husband has his own story. I anticipate a blog about his experiences very soon.)
No turning back. Because of where I have been, because of my experiences, I am able to recognize unhealthy patterns in others. It is my passion. I feel that in my near future, I will be (WE will be, my husband and I) helping others to choose healthy.
I am not going to lie. It aggravates me to hear people say, they cannot do something. It is simply that they choose not to do so. I will not work with people who cannot commit. People that make excuses. Those people are not ready to change their life. When you are ready, you literally gain control of the master switch in your mind. You flip it and become unstoppable. There are no more temptations. You have already chosen ONCE. Once is all it takes. After that, it is simply a statement. I have chosen not to eat like that. I have chosen to make the gym my priority.
Excuses are a person’s attempt to rationalize uncontrolled behavior.
If you are making excuses, you are not in control of your body, your mind, or your health – just to name a few. You have given your power away – to something else, to someone else. You are not in charge.
Have you ever spoken with someone who says, “I am all in.” I want to change. I have to change. I need to change. And the very next morning they post a picture of dozen Krispy Kreme with the caption, “My Breakfast.” What???
Everyday I see people who have made the decision to change their life, some of whom I have never met but my heart swells with joy for them as I see them go from existing to living. The smiles on their faces, the confidence, the power!
Choosing YOU is empowering on every level.
I have heard – I cannot afford healthy. Well, I say you cannot afford obesity. I have heard I do not have time. Well, you may not have time if you continue your current course of being lackadaisical with whatever choice you are not taking control of – someone else just might make that decision for you. Job, marriage. If you are not being the best version of you, being a gift in your role – someone just might go looking for someone who is being the best version of themselves.
That might not be a popular thought, but I do not want to spend my life with a couch potato that only makes it off of the couch to hit the nearest buffet. I want the guy that challenges me everyday to be my best – in all things.
My husband even challenges me in my relationship with God. Thank God. I have been in a place where I have not had that.
Rant over. Maximize your life. Maximize the lives of the members of your family. Be the example. Stop settling for mediocrity. Make the change. Get away from dream stealers!
Message me if you need help – but ONLY if you are serious.
Until Next Time,