Several years ago, it was as if God allowed me to see a man as He did. I saw a vulnerable, used, abused, sensitive, defeated, alone, and very broken man lacking hope. I saw his silent struggle without him speaking a word. Beyond that, I saw his beautiful heart and the smile that could be. I saw what others overlooked or took advantage of without the slightest regard. I saw possibility.
Seeing someone through God’s eyes is powerful. Our own are so incapable of seeing unadulterated, unbiased purity. It enabled me to feel the strongest love and compassion I have ever felt toward one person.
I prayed and still do that God will continue to allow me to see this man as He does everyday for the rest of my life. This man is now my husband.
Being his wife is truly one of the greatest gifts that God has ever given me. I feel that God chose me to love this man back to life.
Today was a moment that upon reflection brings me to tears. This man being vulnerable in quite a different way as he just got a complete knee replacement has grown to rely and lean on, and trust me completely. These are gifts that I cherish. I know how deeply these things were buried within him.
I love being the one.
For women that feel that serving your husband is somehow demeaning, you do not know the blessing that you are missing. When I serve my husband, I feel that I am fulfilling a role that God selected just for me and I strive to do it with excellence.
This has been a long week – early mornings, late nights. Me doing the things that he normally does for us. Rather than feeling exhausted, I feel exhilarated. Waking up knowing that he is in the hospital and I am the one makes me want to get there as soon as I can. Making sure he is comfortable and taken care of and cherishing what a gift it is that I get to do that. Getting him tucked into his bed tonight before finally heading home to do home things. I left the hospital smiling tonight.
This has been a week where I completely put another person first and by doing so I got the reward.
My husband and I share a closeness beyond any I could have ever imagined possible. He does not complete me but loving him certainly does.
Loving my husband as he needed, and needs to be loved, has taught me how very much that God loves me. I think that is exactly how marriage is supposed to be.
I am truly the luckiest woman alive tonight.
I love you Fairfield and will guard your heart as closely as I can to the way that God guards mine.
Thank you for the gift of you.
Until Next Time,