As I sat here doing my Bible study and writing in my prayer journal, praying that God would talk a little louder because I do not seem to be hearing Him lately, it occurred to me that the reason that I have not been hearing Him is that I have not been listening.
It seems that I do most of the talking. It is a good thing that I do not actually speak and vocalize all of my own internal chatter!
Can you imagine what people would think if we had a computer screen on our foreheads where they could read everything that we thought in a day – UNCENSORED?
Oh my! It would be interesting to say the least.
I get tired “listening” to all of my junk! The thing is – we do not have to say any of our thoughts aloud for God to hear them. I wonder if He has noise canceling earphones? After all, a lot of our stuff is just noise, right? We make things way too difficult sometimes.
I do not know about you, but sometimes I have full-fledged conversations with myself. Normally self-doubt. Questioning myself. Reasoning. I have become a master at reasoning away promptings.
What is a prompting? Something that requires a response. Maybe the thought crosses your mind that you should email or call someone. Someone is in the grocery store struggling to pay the bill and you feel something compelling you to step up. A call to action!
Yes, ashamedly, I have reasoned those away. And, then I wonder why I cannot hear God.
How many times has my husband ignored me when I have been talking? I normally say something like, “Are you listening to me?” “What did I say?” In frustration, I might say “Never mind!”
Could God be frustrated with me? Could God be saying “Never Mind?”
Thankfully God never gives up on us. God never says, “Never mind.” Instead he waits patiently for us to willingly receive.
Amazing what you can work out with God when you pray! So in my angst over God’s silence, praying for Him to speak and to release me from my block of deafening silence, there it was a prompting, once more. This time, I did not think. I just did. Suddenly, the numbness that I felt, the stifling uneasiness that had consumed me was gone.
And then there was peace….
Until Next Time.