I have always been an overachiever – driven to be the best at whatever I set out to do. So, it truly pains me to say that I am not at the head of the class when it comes to knowing about God. I am so far from where I want to be! I wish that I had a more solid foundation in my Christianity earlier in life. Sometimes I find myself wishing that Tony Evans had been my dad, Priscilla Shirer my sister, and that I had been immersed with people strong in the faith from my earliest days. Okay, I still wish Priscilla Shirer was my sister or at the very least, a friend, a close friend – a bestie! Nonetheless, there is no assurance that having that kind of upbringing would have brought me any closer to being the Christian that I so aspire to be.
Why? Because it is personal! Let’s face it, even those from the most “religious” or “Christian” families have been known to wander off into the deepest darkest wilderness.
I am simply a woman who despite the curve balls of life, found her way to God. It does not matter where we came from or where we have been or even the mistakes that we have made. We can all find our way to a place of magnificince with God.
For me, it is a quest – a journey! Ultimate bucket list. Dream destination. Having one of those kinds of relationships with God. Suddenly – NOTHING MATTERS MORE!
Here is what happens to me – I read a great book and wish that I had that kind of influence to pour into the world. It gets discouraging to say the least, for the perfectionist overachiever that I am, to realize that I am just a mere infant in my knowledge and feel I have so little to offer in comparison to those that I hold up high as mentors and teachers. Comparison trap. Don’t go there. Satan really wants that to happen to stop you in your tracks.
However, it recently occurred to me that I do have the passion and desire to know more – to know Christ more intimately and that journey alone, if shared, can impact someone at a different stage than me!
I had this incredible breakthrough the day before yesterday. It seemed that answers to my prayers were raining down from heaven – not just a slight shower but a good old-fashioned gully washer of blessings was pouring down on me! It was in that moment that I realized (not to discount the answers to the prayers themselves) that I was more thankful, grateful, and overjoyed by the fact that God actually heard my prayers. I am in a relationship with God! He is with me! Woohoo!!!!!
It is not that I was unaware before that time that God hears and answers prayers. It was the fact that He answered mine! So often I have felt that the words of my heart when muttered out loud either verbally or on paper – stopped right there. I was not praying with expectation because, quite honestly, that is a concept very new to me. Before pursuing an intimate, personal relationship with God prayers were merely a formality, not a conversation. Make sense?
Now, I cannot wait to talk to him! Not even because I want something but because I know that he hears me! God hears me. God hears you! Think about that for a minute. Imagine the most inspirational public figure that you can think of that you would like to have the opportunity to spend time with and what a true long shot that could be. Now, imagine God – the creator of the universe – and that He wants to spend time with little ol’ you! There is no networking involved. No VIP guest list. No struggle involved with getting to meet Him. He does not care what your last name is, or isn’t, or what college you attended, or even if you didn’t. He only cares that you want to be with Him! You simply call out His name and He is there.
Pray with expectation. That is where it all starts!
Until Next Time,