I am reminded of a time that my sister and I were walking and talking. We were discussing what we would have inscribed on one another’s headstones. This came after seeing an elderly gentleman walking ahead of us on the track. He seemed to be just moments from cardiac arrest. I proudly stated that I had just completed health provider CPR and would do the breathing part and since she was stronger she could perform compressions. She smiled big and said “Ok, what a deal! At least I don’t have to kiss the old dude!” Typical Cynthia. I did not think that one through! Getting back to the headstone- she informed me that mine would say “I liked pie!” She also informed me that my life was full of fun and laughter and silly moments- similar to those portrayed in the “I Love Lucy” shows. She even informed me that she was keeping notes in what she calls “The Book” so that she can share all of my craziness at my memorial service. She wanted to make sure that everyone had a good time! All joking aside, she was and continues to be a party to many of my shenanigans so if she does share from “The Book” she is also indicted.
This morning I am thinking about “The Book.” There are many versions. Each with many chapters. The ones that others are writing about me- there will be many authors as every person I have ever come in contact with will have at the very least have a short story. The one that I am writing. The most important one that is being written is the one from God’s point of view.
I have no control of the one that others are writing as it will be based on their perception of me based on their own experiences – some of which may have nothing to do with me at all. People tend to be less forgiving than God so I am sure you will find all of my faults, mistakes, and shortcomings here. My hope is that the good will far outweigh the bad. The “Lucy” shenanigans will be here no doubt! I want to live a life worthy of high marks. Dignity. Grace. Humility. Service. Love. I hope these chapters will find a place there. The best that I can do is to live my life characteristic of how I want to be perceived. One version that I am most invested in is how I love others especially my husband. I want his version to reflect that he felt loved, cherished, respected, honored and that I made his life better by being in it. I want his version to be read as the ultimate love story. In order for that to happen, I choose to love him that way everyday- my greatest pleasure!
The version that I am authoring will include my hurts, my joys, and my victories. My hurts only matter if I use them to enhance who I become- otherwise that chapter will sound like whining without purpose. I really do not like whining or complaining without an action plan. Therefore, there will be numerous stories of triumph over tragedy! I see it creating a feeling of positivity, and hope for all who read it. My book will include the stories that shaped me into who I am and those that I shared experiences with. On a lighter note, I have seen many writing jokes that insinuate that those who interact with writers should be careful as they could end up characters in a book- just saying!!! I love to laugh. I love to smile. It took me a long time to find those abilities. It took attitude. It took real love. It took God. So- although many of my stories may have initially leave readers wondering how I smile- if they keep reading all the way until the end they will see how even trials, failures, and short-comings can be used for good! My book will show how easily it could have been to accept average. My book will show that I did not! It will show that I opted to reach for my greatest dreams even if on my tip toes despite challenges and adversities. I am writing this book each day of my life and there is always a new chapter. A life renewed.
As for God’s book- I know without a doubt that it should contain a lot of the things I have done wrong, mistakes I have made. However, I know that it won’t. The whole forgiveness thing makes me absolutely joyful. It makes me want to live a better life- far from average. My constant prayer is that God will make me invisible so that when people look at me, they see something different and wonder what it is. That HE will shine through me. I want my life to point people to him. I hope that in His book it will say my life honored his sacrifice for me. I do not have the final say in that as he is the ultimate editor but I do get to contribute material for review! I want to make sure that my submissions get approved and are deemed as worthy.
My challenge for myself is that I will be conscious of what material I am submitting every day to all that I encounter and that includes me. I hope that this challenge will resonate with some of you as well. Let’s make our submissions and our stories positive, inspirational and worthy!