Today I was unplugged from all the amenities of life that I have obviously been taking for granted and not by choice. Electricity, Water, Internet, Cell Phone. No coffee! As the day went on, I felt lost. I twiddled my thumbs literally. What to do?
I finished a book that I have been reading. I wrote a blog or two. I went to the sink about a dozen times turning on the water to see if any would come out. I would quickly turn around and do it again as if I could trick the water into running.
When I was able to get the slightest charge on my phone from a battery pack, I checked my email. No major work catastrophes. Hmm. Maybe my email was not syncing? Took a deep breath.
How did I get here? So controlled by devices. Defined by the number of emails that I get each day. Expectant of running water and central heat. Anxious by non-activity and a slower pace.
I decided to piece myself together the best I could without my DAILY shower. Yes, I suppose I have even taken that for granted. There are people who do not even have fresh water to drink. Hard to imagine.
After finally deeming myself acceptable, I gathered up my Chloe and we headed to Taco Bell. There was a day Taco Bell would have been a luxury for me. I sat in the car eating lunch, sharing with Chloe and all of the sudden I got choked. Really choked. I tried to drink to dislodge the food stuck in my throat to no avail. I panicked. I had to stick my finger down my throat. The scene wasn’t pretty. Chloe looking at me puzzled, confused and crying. After recovering from my coughing fit, I could not help but to think about my eulogy if I died at Taco Bell. Those of you that know me personally will probably get a real laugh out of that one. I go there so frequently they have been known to address me by name at the drive through speaker. Still somewhat panicked, I messaged my husband and my sister.
I began to consider the totality of the day. I almost died today. I realized all the things I take for granted. Better yet all the things that I should be grateful for. Even more so, I realized that the company and clients that I dedicate so much of me to, made it just fine without me. If today had been the last day of my life….what would I wish I had done differently?
I would have read more. I would have focused more on writing, my family, my friends and taking Chloe for more walks. I would have worked less. I would have left my cell phone behind more on purpose so I could truly be in the moment. I would take a real vacation with my husband. I would enjoy my shower instead of hurrying through it. I would sip my coffee slower.
I would slow down and re-prioritize my life.
Fortunately today was not my last day. It seems I have tomorrow. I also have a new opportunity to choose what defines me, what matters most to me, what/who gets the best of me. I get a chance to live with more gratitude in my heart…..starting right now! I still have no water, but I do have wine and for that I am very grateful.
Until next time,